Posts Tagged ‘school’

Cold Morning

{ August 4, 2009 @ 5:53 am } · { :( }
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I woke up feeling sad today. I dunno for what reason. Maybe because I still don’t have an assignment in my first class today and I don’t actually think I can answer it right now. Hahaha. But sometimes – if not most of the time – it’s because the thought of him bothers me. Or maybe the thought of losing him… Yes, I’ve already lost him actually. But these past weeks, we’ve been hanging out because of school stuff or friendly get-togethers and I feel like I’m gonna miss him badly when all of these are over. *Sigh* Why the hell can’t I just move on? $?@#!

But there. I think I just spilled it out so that feeling won’t bother me anymore. Hopefully, I’ll feel better now and won’t think about it too much. After all, that’s life. And it’s not yet actually happening so why should I worry? Besides, I’ve got toooooooooooons to do still and my life is getting crappy again so I better stop wasting time blogging about nonsense things and start doing my pending work.

Ciao for now!

Conditioning Myself

{ August 21, 2008 @ 1:08 am } · { :( }
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Bahhh!!! First, spare me some moment to rant about life…

“Damn selfish little brother!”

Okay, that was good. Hai, I’m blogging because I need to condition myself. Yes, I may be wasting time I direly need just to post in my La-La-La-lovely blog but I really need to do this – to speak to myself so I can formally correct what wrong I may be doing right now.

“Janell, you’re a student, you’re supposed to be studying!”

Yes, I know. But school is just so not fun! Well, it’s not meant to be like that but I just wish it was somehow like that. Aww, come on, myself, grow up. Maybe I just miss having fun while learning at the same time. You know, getting together with friends, or making new ones… It’s just that school right now is like an on-your-own game. It’s becoming more of a competition rather than a means for you to develop yourself and help the others around you develop as well. *sigh* I don’t know. Right now, I feel torn apart in prioritizing things I’d like to do (hanging out with friends for example) and things I have to do (studying, org stuffs, meetings). It’s easy to say that of course I should to what I HAVE to do but I just don’t get the inspiration without first achieving what I’d like to do. But in the end, even if I did what I wanted to do, I still feel incomplete :( or maybe I just don’t really get that urge to study anymore.

Is it because of Accounting? Or am I just passing the blame again?

Huuuuuuuuuuu….. If someone can answer me and tell me what’s wrong… please!!!

Hai…

But even just as of now…

Janell, you’re a student, you should be studying. Do your best, and then you can do anything you’d LIKE or WANT when you finish school. You are not being forced in your course, it’s just that you should at least try. Don’t get overwhelmed or pressured by the other people around you. Just do what you got to do. Prioritize properly and you’ll get there. :)

With much love,

Yourself

When School Becomes Useful

{ August 17, 2008 @ 12:39 pm } · { :) }
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Recently, it seems like everyone’s talking about how important to know one’s self is. Whether it be people from seminars I’ve gone to, or my friends, or my teachers, or even my inner self =p – they are all pointing out the fact that knowing your self is important. Lately, I have also figured this out because I’ve recognized that I’m very vague when it comes to things that I want to do. It’s like you don’t want what’s happening to you now but neither do you know what you’d like to do or to happen. Eh ano nang mangyayari sa akin kung ganun? So, what I wanna do now is try to know myself more. Accept my weaknesses, work on them. Know my strengths and develop them. Grabe, ano ‘to? SWOT analysis? Hai, things you figure out in school. They can prove to be useful really. But if anyone knew about what I wanna do, they’ll most probably tell me that I’m such a nerd. “Well at least, I’m trying to do something logical!” Hahaha.

So I plan to make a thorough analysis of myself for my next posts. I wish to apologize to those (if there are) people who are reading my blog. Please refrain from reading for the next month if you do not want to get involved in my gross analysis of myself. Hahahaha!

*sigh* Another random post. =p