I feel sad.
I’m still not talking with my grandmother after our stupid fight. Well, I was going to talk to her but then she said bad things about me to my dad. I never wanted the fight to get that big. She should have just kept her mouth shut. But she chose to be such a childish person again. Oh well.
Then my little brother is getting emo lately possibly because of a girl. I’ve never seen him like this and I really never imagined. I actually feel annoyed by how he’s acting recently. It feels really weird when he talks to me about it. I wanna get some sense into him that he shouldn’t take this whole “puppy love” thing too seriously but he’s just doing the opposite. And I hate it when he asks questions like, “Is this *some gesture or what happened* normal?” I just told you not to take it too seriously, dude. Don’t go over-analyzing things. WTH? Why is my family like this? It’s like being a love fool is genetic.
And speaking of love fools, hello world! *Sigh* I just feel tired right now. Tired of being unprepared for review school. Tired of dealing with difficult people. Tired of thinking about unsure situations. Tired of thinking about my life. I thought I’d be happy to start all this review school thing but I’m losing. It’s like my life has no direction right now and I just wanna quit on everything. I’m losing self-worth and ego again.
I hate it when I’m like this. When I feel overly conscious about myself. When I feel so vulnerable. When I feel so stupid. I hate it when I’m… *sigh*.
