Uncertainty is one of the worse things I could ever feel. I just finished preenlisting classes for the next semester and unlike before when I was used to really carefully scheduling my classes, this time i really didn’t care. I couldn’t care more about our online enlistment this time. I’m not even sure of what course I’ll be in next semester. It’s like, let it be, let it be. *sigh* I’m just too tired right now. I’m sorry. I’m not tired because of any particular thing. It’s just that everything piles up and I really don’t know what to do. Problems are too many and too complicated to solve. I’d rather just let them go – let them be – than resolve them. *sigh* I feel like I need to do something new to take away my attention from these things that are not helping me any longer. They are not making me happy anymore. I feel even worse because of them. I need to get away.
Unlike my other classmates who are planning something cool to do with everyone else this sembreak, I just want to be alone for some time. I want to reflect and relax myself. Detach myself from the world. Besides, I’ll get back to them as soon as our short break’s over. To start the next semester right, I’d try to plan for my sembreak and what I want to do with that short time in my hands. Hai…
Irrational for me. But I wish I could turn back time.
