Bahhh!!! First, spare me some moment to rant about life…
“Damn selfish little brother!”
Okay, that was good. Hai, I’m blogging because I need to condition myself. Yes, I may be wasting time I direly need just to post in my La-La-La-lovely blog but I really need to do this – to speak to myself so I can formally correct what wrong I may be doing right now.
“Janell, you’re a student, you’re supposed to be studying!”
Yes, I know. But school is just so not fun! Well, it’s not meant to be like that but I just wish it was somehow like that. Aww, come on, myself, grow up. Maybe I just miss having fun while learning at the same time. You know, getting together with friends, or making new ones… It’s just that school right now is like an on-your-own game. It’s becoming more of a competition rather than a means for you to develop yourself and help the others around you develop as well. *sigh* I don’t know. Right now, I feel torn apart in prioritizing things I’d like to do (hanging out with friends for example) and things I have to do (studying, org stuffs, meetings). It’s easy to say that of course I should to what I HAVE to do but I just don’t get the inspiration without first achieving what I’d like to do. But in the end, even if I did what I wanted to do, I still feel incomplete 
or maybe I just don’t really get that urge to study anymore.
Is it because of Accounting? Or am I just passing the blame again?
Huuuuuuuuuuu….. If someone can answer me and tell me what’s wrong… please!!!
Hai…
But even just as of now…
Janell, you’re a student, you should be studying. Do your best, and then you can do anything you’d LIKE or WANT when you finish school. You are not being forced in your course, it’s just that you should at least try. Don’t get overwhelmed or pressured by the other people around you. Just do what you got to do. Prioritize properly and you’ll get there. 
With much love,
Yourself
